This morning, I tried a new supplement and med schedule in my pursuit to help normalize certain symptoms of my ADD. From what I could tell it was working pretty well and I had a great time playing in the praise band this morning. I noticed that the medicine was not being helpful about the time that the worship set was over and I noticed that my hands were shaking when I sat down to listen to the sermon. I also noticed that I felt like my body was full energy as if I needed to take a very long run and my brain was fuzzy. This continued to persist throughout the sermon, the rest of the morning, and began to disappear about the time I finished mowing the lawn.
I don't know about you but I am not a fan of not being in control of all my faculties. It is amazing that the things that are supposed to help my mind become clearer are the very things that make them worse. Now I am by no means someone who is opposed to all medicines but there are times where I wonder if all the ADD materials are wrong and if I would just be better off continuing to trust the Lord for the grace to accomplish what I need to do each day. I would love to believe that there is a miracle drug cocktail out there to clear up my struggles in this life. All of this reminds me of the Switchfoot song "Mess of Me" which says,
"I am my own affliction
I am my own disease
There ain't no drug that they could sellAh, there ain't no drug to make me well."
Though the jury is still out on helping to normalize my ADD, the sermon this morning helped bring to focus the fact that when it comes to sin, "there ain't no drug to make me well." Paul writes about this struggle in Romans 7:15-20 saying, "For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me."
Isn't it so comforting to know that the one who wrote over half of the New Testament, battled with sin just like us. It's comforting to me. It helps me to appreciate the saving grace and mercy of Jesus so much more. Peter says it well in 1 Peter 1:3-9, "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls."
No matter what I face in this life, I always know that I have a God who loves me so much that he sent Jesus. I know that no struggle is too great to overcome, whether medical or spiritual, as long as I always put my faith in Him. I hope that brings you peace. I hope that fills you with Joy. Our God is such a good and wonderful God.
So with all the craziness of this morning with the supplement and drug interaction, I still had a wonderful day. When I came home I pulled out the grill and grilled some hotdogs and even tried my hand at chicken. It is so wonderful to try something new and succeed! After eating a wonderfully grilled meal, I mowed the lawn, dug up 25 sweet potatoes in the garden with my wife, Mel, fixed the garage door, read the first chapter of Courageous Living, and even was able to work on my website. All in all it was a productive day. Isn't so nice to take stock of your day and rest in the fact that it was well spent. I hope you each have a wonderful week. It is supposed to be beautiful all week in Indiana and I hope that it will be the same where you are. May God lift you up and keep you.
Blessings,
Greg
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