Day 4 August 12, 2011
Today has been a long day. I hurt; I’m broken; and I am tired. It is so amazing (and annoying) that it always seems that the area of your life you choose to work on is the area where you receive the most trials. As I work on reading What’s So Amazing About Grace, I was bombarded with loads of opportunities to offer and live grace and today I crashed and burned on most of those opportunities.
In my job as a maintenance technician, I deal with all sorts of task and some times they are highly physically oriented. Today was one of those days as my coworker and I worked to cut down dead trees on the property of the business we work for. Both of us are definitely novices when it comes to using a chain saw and as we ran into situations and problems our tensions got a little high from our differing view of what was causing the problem.
I believed that the problem was just the stump we were working on while my colleague believed the chain saw needed to be sharpened. My colleague was most likely right and even if he wasn’t it definitely wouldn’t have hurt to at least give his solution a shot but in my normal stubborn manner I chose to work myself to the bone trying to saw through the stump to prove him wrong. I did accomplish sawing through the stump but at a much greater effort than was necessary. On top of all that I frustrated my coworker by not even giving his solution merit. This was not Christ-like in any way or necessary.
I am so thankful that the Lord does not extend the grace to me that I give to others. I am so thankful that he is way more patient with me than I am with others also. Though today was a bust, I am so grateful I have the opportunity to live in the Lord’s grace and love anew tomorrow and hopefully I can live more like Jesus and less like me tomorrow.
Jesus,
Please help me to live you love and grace each day. I do not want to only offer a lip service to you but my every being. Thank you for your love and grace when I am being hardheaded and stubborn. Draw near Lord. Guide me and lead me in your ways. Make my steps yours and my words yours. I love you and thank you.
Humbly,
Greg
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